For nineteen years, I stayed in the same job, repeating a routine I knew by heart. It was stable, and it covered what needed covering, which is how I justified the sense of dread that came with it. I didn’t love the work, and I didn’t even like it most days, but I told myself that practicality mattered more than passion. When something pays the bills, it’s easy to call endurance a virtue.
Over time, though, that bargain started to feel expensive. I could do the job without thinking, and that was part of the problem. The longer I stayed, the more I wondered whether I was shrinking my own possibilities just to keep everything predictable. I had become good at tolerating a life that didn’t fit.
A Question That Felt Too Big to Say Out Loud
Then 2017 arrived, and with it came a question that was equal parts thrilling and frightening: could I actually build something of my own? The idea of becoming an entrepreneur didn’t land like a tidy plan. It landed like a dare. I wanted the leap, but I also wanted a net, something that would keep the decision from feeling reckless.
I wasn’t confident enough to rely solely on instinct, so I went looking for reassurance in the form of certainty. I wanted a sign so obvious it would silence my doubt, a clear, unmistakable “yes” that could stand in for courage. I searched for the kind of confirmation that feels external and official, as if the universe might stamp an approval on the path forward.
The Unexpected “Yes” I Didn’t See Coming
What appeared instead wasn’t the grand signal I’d imagined. It wasn’t a booming answer or an undeniable event that rearranged my life on the spot. It was a deck of tarot cards.
I didn’t set out expecting tarot to become part of my decision-making, and I certainly didn’t predict it would end up at the center of how I approached business choices. Yet that’s what I found: not the guarantee I thought I needed, but a tool that drew my attention in a way I couldn’t ignore. A simple deck, showing up where I’d been demanding certainty, became the thing I carried forward.
